i have this best friend, but i feel like she's been slowly slipping through my hands. we grew up together and we used to spend all of our extra time together. now, i feel like i'm an after thought in her life. i feel like when we hang out its a "oh aubree we're all going out to do this, you should come with us" and not "aubree, i wanna hang out with you, lets go do this." it really really hurts my heart.
this friend doesn't seem to tell me anything anymore. i hear about what's happening in her life after it's already happened. i feel like this friend has replaced me with others. it really really hurts my heart.
it's hard for me to say anything to this friend because i'm moving to north carolina in 2 months. i'm scared to say anything to this friend because i don't want her to get mad at me for the way i feel. it really really hurts my heart.
all this hurt really came up today when i woke up to a text i got at 1 this morning. this friend told me that she had met a guy, that he was what she had been waiting for and she couldn't wait to tell me about him and she really wanted me to meet him. i was happy for her. then i was talking to another friend who told me that in fact she was already this guys girlfriend. i didn't even know she had been seeing anyone. she hadn't told me anything about him and that really really hurt my heart.
i love this friend so much. i consider her my best friend, but sometimes i feel like she doesn't treat me like a best friend. she doesn't tell me about the important things that she's going through anymore. so now it's hard for me to be happy for her because i'm so sad about where our friendship is.
i don't know how to tell her these things. i'm scared she won't understand and that i'll lose her. i've already partially lost her to other friends, and now she has this guy. i feel like she'll never have time for me anymore. i'm scared that when i move to north carolina, i'll never talk to her unless i initiate it because i already don't hear from her when we live 2 miles away from each other.
my heart is really really sad.
